March 14, 2014

I Put A Spell On You

By In Diary

This is a very spell-cial photo set for me. Joking aside, as I was checking these photos out and prepping them for this blog, not once did I look at any of them and cringe. I think we all deal with that to varying degrees. There is just something about ourselves that we can’t stand to be reminded of. Maybe it’s our appearance, our voice, our clothes, or whatever, but we go out of our way not to be reminded of it. (More Below)

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My appearance has most certainly been one of those things. You deal with gender identity issues long enough and you really begin to hate the reflection in the mirror or photograph. Personally, I’ve had to go on a long journey to learn to love myself. I used to hate my voice, but then I started using it more, then podcasting. Now, I love my voice. I used to hate my art and be supercritical of every choice I made, but now I am confident and proud of what I have created. There are more examples of this (many more), but I think you get the picture.

At some point, I discovered what they key is. There will always be things that you don’t like about your life or your person, but you have to realize that you are a work in progress. We also have the ability to change our course and become who we want to be.

So for me, one of my last great battles is how I physically see myself. That’s why I started this photo blog. That’s why I like the idea of “selfies” and why I love fashion bloggers who do there thing. These things have helped us see the broader definition of beauty, instead of the very narrow one we’ve been presented for so long. Plus, these things have helped us appreciate who we are as individuals. How is that a bad thing?

I feel my blog contributes to that effort I just described. I’ve am very proud of that. Also, my own reflection no longer haunts me as it once did. When I see it now, I smile. More so when I looked at the results from this shoot. I wasn’t seeing every flaw as I usually do and I wasn’t feeling incredibly self-conscious. I simply felt good about what I saw. This marks an important moment for me that. I’m really happy to be able to share it all with you. 🙂

Escape The Ordinary,
Ele Nichols

What I’m Wearing:
Maxi Dress: Max Studio @ Nordstrom Rack
Top: I.ner @ Nordstrom Rack
Boots: Doc Martin’s
Necklaces: ASOS.com / Nordstrom Rack
Bracelet: Kiosk (Unknown)
Rings: Nordstrom Rack / eBay.com

Makeup:
Cargo Blu-Ray Pressed Powder Foundation
Cargo Blu-Ray Mattifier (Primer)
Lorac Double Feature Concealer & Highlighter
Kinerase Ultimate Volume Lip Conditioner SPF 15
NARS Blush & Bronzer Duo (Orgasm Blush & Laguna Bronzer)
Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion Tube (Original)
Urban Decay Naked 2 Eye Palette
Urban Decay 24/7 Liquid Eyeliner (Perversion – Carbon Black)
Makeup Forever Kohl Pencil (Matte White 2K & Black 1K)
Urban Decay Glide-On Eye Pencil (Demolition – Matte Deep Brown) [Brows]
Chanel Inimitable Waterproof Multi Dimensional Mascara (10 Noir)

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