Hello all you lovely lovelies! November has come and almost gone. Thanksgiving is right at the doorstep and I’m feeling especially thankful right now. 2015 has been much better year than it’s predecessor, which was a complete dick. While I still find myself trying to find myself, I feel much closer to that goal than I ever have before. I’ve spent all my adult life looking for respect from people for what I could do, but this year I learned it’s about who I am that deserves respect.
While it still frustrates me about how I’m not fully living up to my artistic potential, I’ve come to understand that it means nothing if I don’t live up to my human potential. What exactly does that mean? It’s easy to get bogged down in your own personal drama and crusades, but if you don’t take the time to appreciate the beauty and wonderful people of this world, you will have failed at life. At this moment, I truly feel alive.
Speaking of being Alive…”It’s ALIVE!!”
It’s odd posting about Halloween, which was almost a month ago, but I’m an odd kinda ball. It does fit in however with this topic of living life. For the past four years, I haven’t celebrated Halloween and it is one of my top two holidays. Dressing up and immersing myself in the spirit of the season was one of my greatest joys, but after I shed away the mask of lies I lived in all my life (aka coming out), I found myself friendless and alone. By 2011, I felt defeated and began to crawl into a hole. I had been let down by people and was in pain. I thought I was protecting myself, but I was really only isolating myself. By the time I realized this, I had forgotten how to be a functional member of society and make friends.
Sometimes life gives you a free one. For me, that was my best fiend Megan. We had been long distance friends for a long time, but when she moved to Los Angeles early last year, that’s when the healing process began for me. In so many ways, we’ve helped and pushed each other to move on and rebuild. She’s my family and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
After this year of growth and a personal challenge to myself to get out of my comfort zone, I knew Halloween had to be epic. So I dusted off an idea that I had from years previous and used the talents of my best fiend to create the humanoid you behold in these photos. Now I want to be silver all the time. #Shiny #AlcoholRechargePort